Realizations

I’ve come to a realization in the last week or so. My taste in music is like really weird. I definitely I had some preferences that were a little out there, but I honestly hadn’t realized just how far out there I’ve strayed. It took a full weekend of people asking me, “what is this?” rather than “Wow! WHO is this?!” while listening to music to make me fully realize that things might have gotten out of hand. How many people do you know that still listen to Linkin Park? Probably a decent number, that ish is dope. How many…

The Narrative

The next thing my uncle asked about in his message to me was about writing against the popular narratives in my life. Within the context of Fiji to Provo that’s about talking about losing my faith in a church I was raised in and how this loss of faith unravelled me and forced me to reconsider who I even was.  This process was even further complicated by the fact that my loss of faith was not permanent. I’m now a fully active member of the church again, even though I must admit that doubts still linger. Honestly though if you…

Why Even Write?

A few weeks back (way longer than I wanted to take for this, sorry about that) I got a message from some family responding to another blog post: Fiji to Provo. (Gah I still hate that title) I don’t think they’d have any problem with me using their name in here but I didn’t check with them so I’ll just play it safe. Their response started a lot like several other responses I got, they thanked me for sharing my story, let me know that they cared and supported me, all that stuff. After that, they asked some questions. Big…

The Nature of Love

So there’s this song that I’ve been listening to a bunch for a little while now. It’s called The Nature of Love and it’s by Sinitus Tempo, (click the link to listen to it, I recommend you do while you read it because I’m super pretentious and think it might affect how you perceive what I’m saying) I have absolutely no idea how to define his music in terms of genre, but that probably has more to do with my lack of knowledge when it comes to music than him having a mind-bending sound that defies common conventions of what…

New (School) Year, New Me

It’s a new semester for me so I wanted to take a quick moment to look back on my summer in writing to reflect and then perhaps even look a little bit forward to speculate on what I’m hoping to accomplish over the next few months, does that sound good? Not that it even matters if you agree this is just what’s happening. I’m really trying to be polite though. Ok so if I’m being honest, I actually liked most of the writing I did over the summer, which is kind of surprising because normally I hate everything I write…

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It’s two in the morning I can’t sleep, my mind races away Like a rat caught in a wheel Ever spinning, and never changing I wish I understood how I feel That I could cover my bases But it pulls at me once more Feelings I thought I could ignore Now they strike my soul with gore “It would be better to forget this” “You’ve always preferred being alone” It’s 2 in the morning Have I waited too long? Has my chance come and past? Why did it have to be her? Why did it have to be now? “Ease…

The New MoviePass

I’ve stated like a hundred billion times that I have a MoviePass and I love it, it’s an absolutely insane value for someone that goes to as many movies as I do. I also believe that unless something dramatic happens MoviePass will soon run out of money and cease to exist. The folks over at MoviePass also seem to believe this as they recently announced some upcoming changes to the service. Let’s go over them quickly because while most of this is nice and convenient there’s one that sticks out like a sore thumb to me. I’ll start with what…